jar of heart

I know, I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half a life
And now you want me one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half a life
And now you want me one more time


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all


And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are? 

i dont wanna be a muderer

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

missing you

" I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you  don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are  words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss  you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need  you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those  words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I  wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never  know."

saya sayang awak.... and hope jugak awak sayang saya......

Saya sayang awak.. Tapi betul ke saya sayang awak?? Awak sayang saya ke?? Kalau sayang, nape awak pegang tangan saya?? Awak nak tengok rambut saya, nak hug saya, nak saya pakai seksi2.. Memang la awak tak kasi boy lain tengok saya pakai seksi.. Tapi awak tak halal lagi untuk saya kan?? Awak sayang saya ke kalau saya kasi semua tu kat awak??


Saya sayang awak..Betul..Tak tipu..Tapi sayang ke kalau bila dengan awak, saya lalai?? Saya lupa kat Dia yang dah cipta saya, yang kasi saya perasaan cinta kat awak.. Saya lupa solat, saya lupa dosa.. Saya lupa Tuhan..Takut la...

Betul awak..Saya sayang awak.. Tapi saya takut.. Takut sangat nak sayang awak.. Awak baik, selalu solat awal.. Tapi nape bila dengan saya awak lupa solat?? Masa kuar, kita lalu je depan masjid.. Tak pernah stop.. Tapi kat tempat takde orang, kita stop. Beratus duit awak habis untuk saya kan?? Saya hargai sangat.. Saya tau awak sayang saya..Tapi nape awak tak simpan duit tu dulu..Kot2 ada jodoh, boleh kita kawen.. Awak... Saya takut.. Takut sangat.. Takut bila ingat pe yang kita dah buat.. Saya nak awak jadi halal utk saya.. Tapi tak boleh la sekarang.. Macam mana awak nak tanggung saya..Kita blaja lagi..Saya nak hidup dengan awak..Saya nak awak jadi imam saya.. Nak sangat share everything dengan awak.. Saya nak jadi kekasih halal awak..Tapi betul ke cara kita wak?? Saya takut laaaa...

Awak..Saya nak hidup dengan awak forever kat heaven.. Tapi layak ke kita gi heaven kalau kita camni??Macam mana kalau tiba2 Dia panggil kita pergi.. Tak kisah la saya dulu, awak dulu atau dua2 skali.. Boleh ke kita gi heaven kalau Dia panggil kita skarang?? Kalau la Dia tanya apa yang saya dah buat dengan awak, apa saya nak jawab nanti.. Saya maluuuuuuuuuuu sangat kat Dia..

Awak.. Lama saya fikir.. Saya fikir pasal kita.. Betul saya sayang awak.. Tapi, sampai bila kita nak camni??Awak.. Saya dah fikir lama... Lepas ni, kalau saya xmesej awak, xnak jumpa awak, xnak call awak, awak jangan salah faham tau.. Saya buat camtu sebab saya sayang awak sangat2.. Awak.. Saya nak forever kat syurga dengan awak.. Dulu saya sedih sebab kita jauh.. Tapi skarang, saya bersyukur sangat..Tuhan sayang kita.. Kalau dekat, awak boleh agak kan pe kita buat nanti??

Saya xtau camne nak bagitau awak..Saya nak jaga hati awak.. Tapi awak sedar tak sebenarnya saya dah kotorkan hati awak.. Saya suka goda awak dengan manja saya, dengan body saya.. Saya suka buat awak cair dgn saya.. Jahatnya saya.. Awak saya banyak dosa.. Awak nak ke terima org macam saya jadi wife awak?? Awak.. Saya nak bersihkan diri saya sebelum jadi yang halal buat awak.. Saya nak jadi the best wife.. Baru la awak xpandang orang lain dah.. Saya xnak susahkan awak dengan saya yang macam ni.. Awak.. Saya nak jadi bidadari awak.. Bukan kat dunia je.. Tp kat heaven gak.. Saya nak jadi bidadari awak yang forever..

Awak.. Saya tahu saya xbaik.... Banyak sangat kekurangan dan xlayak nak tegur salah awak.. Tapi saya sayang awak.. Apa kita buat, bukan ada org tahu pun... Sape lagi nak tegur awak kalau bukan saya?? Saya pun nak awak jadi suami yang boleh pimpin saya ke syurga.. Tak nak ke?? Takkan la awak sayang saya untuk hepi2 kat dunia ni je.. Awak xnak ke pilih saya jadi bidadari awak kat syurga nanti?? Awak.. Tolong la... Saya xnak dah jumpa awak.. Tapi mungkin saya lalai gak nanti.. Syaitan selalu ada dengan saya.. Suka je dia kalau saya keluar dengan awak, goda awak.. Awak.. Tolong la ingat kan saya gak bila saya lupa. Tolong ek.. Saya lemah sangat..Saya nak jadi kuat.. Kuat untuk awak.. Untuk hidup dgn awak.

Saya sayang awak.. Camne kalau tiba2 Dia panggil kita before kita sempat bertaubat..Takutnye saya..Awak xtakut ke?? Camne kita nak pergi syurga?? Camne saya nak jadi bidadari awak?? Saya nak sangat cinta ni kerana Dia..tapi dengan apa kita dah buat, layak ke kita letak nama Dia dalam cinta kita?? Malu sangat kat Dia..Awak..Saya nak berubah..Untuk diri saya gak, untuk parents saya.. Tapi, kalau saya berubah, awak still terima saya lagi kan?? Saya nak berubah pun sebab nak jadi the best untuk awak.. Untuk babies kita nanti.. Nak jadi mom yang the best..Huhu. Tinggi betul cita2 saya.. Saya pun nak kita jadi pasangan yang educated.. Nak sama2 berjaya.. Tapi educated yang taat padaNya la.. Mesti bahagia kan.. Kita ingat Dia, Dia pun ingat kita, so, boleh la Dia jaga kita nanti..

Awak, kalau la saya pergi dulu,saya nak tunggu awak kat syurga tau.. Awak doakan la saya biar boleh masok syurga.. Saya nak jadi bidadari yang tunggu awak..n there, i'll be yours forever... Tapi, kalau awak pergi dulu?? Iye..Saya sedih.. Tapi saya pun akan doakan awak.. InsyaAllah..Nanti awak tunggu la saya kat syurga k?? Mesti ramai bidadari tunggu awak kat sana.. Tapi, simpan la 1 tempat untuk saya k?? Saya nak jadi bidadari awak..

Awak.. Maafkan saya kalau ape yg saya buat dan bagitau ni mengguris hati awak.. Saya buat camni sebab saya sayang awak.. Saya xtau camne nak bagitau awak.. Sebab tu saya taip kt sini.. Maaf sebab saya post kat sini.. Bukan nak bukak keburukan sendiri.. At least mereka yang baca ni boleh jadikan kisah ni sebagai panduan.. Ramai kat luar sana kapel dan buat macam2.. Saya takot nak post kat awak.. Tapi saya harap awak tergerak hati nak baca ni k.. Awak.. Dah nak subuh la.. Kejap lagi mesti Dia panggil saya.. Ingat tau..SAYA SAYANG AWAK ETERNALLY N INFINITY.. n saya tunggu awak jemput saya sebagai yg halal utk awak nanti k..

the best entry...

not from me but you all can take it as guide...

just copy and paste cause i do the same thing too.... :)

semoga ALLAH memberkati saya dan awak...dan juga mereka.....

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